Trying to find peace and happiness while living in a fertile world.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
A new plan
I had a MAJOR break down Friday night. I mean real bad! I have reached my breaking point with life. Between IVF, lack of funds, my mom being sick, and pregnant women everywhere, I just could not seem to cope one more second. Poor DH, he is such a wonderful man and sat with me and let me tell him how much I hate the world. I just feel like I can't take all this pressure. So tonight we sat down and talked about our fertility plan. Not something we have done in a while. We came up with a totally new plan..... Donor IUI. We both feel that, given our fertility issues, it is a good step to try before pulling out the big guns for IVF. He doesn't really care about having genetic connections to our children and likes the fact that it is thousands cheaper than IVF. The great news is we will be starting ASAP. I am scared and still weighing through all the emotions. We have thought a lot about adoption, and have always felt like that was something we would do, so this at least gives us the opportunity to have some genetic connection to a child.
**Side note - we have actually been talking about DIUI for months now and finally went through everything and decided it was the next step we wanted to take. So know that this decision was not made in one conversation.