Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Out of it...

That pretty much sums up how I have felt the last few months. I am so sorry i have been MIA. I just dont feel like a lot of ttc stuff is going on right now. I am hoping to cycle again in the next 4-6 months. I have yet to pick a new clinic, but I figure we have plenty of time.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! Ours was great. MIL drove me crazy, but that's nothing new. I wanted to say congrats to my two bloggy friends who just got BFP after their IUIs. I'm sorry I haven't been commenting. I have just needed a break and time to heal. 2010 was NOT our year. Between all the BFNs, OHSS, my grandma passing away, both of my parents being hospitalized with life threatening conditions, oh and throw on top DH losing his job a few weeks ago, it has been a rough year. (Yep, He is jobless once again. Really sucks, but we have saved all the money for IVF #2 and can afford to live on what I make.) I am so ready for the new year and the opportuinty to try again.

I really hope 2011 brings nothing but joy!
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Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I don't want your kids...

Why is it that friends and family seem to think that just because we are infertile we want their children?? I'm sure all of you have heard the comment, "oh you can have him/her," 146 times or more. This happened to me on Sunday right after church. There is a darling little girl in our ward who was in the primary class I taught a year ago. She loves to come and sit with me and DH. I adore her. I sometimes think that if we would've gotten pg within the first 6 months of ttc we could have a child her same age. This girl even looks like she could be mine and loves to bake! One of my friends made the comment that we could take her home and people would think she was ours. The friend then made the comment to her mother C, who is also a dear friend, and C said, "you can have her." I laughed and continued walking. That got me thinking... No I really don't want this sweet little girl, I want MY daughter. I want MY son. I love other people's children, but I don't really want them. I am grateful they are willing to share them so I can enjoy them for a bit. All of our friends have wonderful children who I love, but it isn't the same. So the next time someone offers to send their son or daughter my way I may just have to turn and say, "no thanks, I'm waiting for ours."
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