Monday, May 13, 2013

First Mother's Day

My first Mother's Day as a mother was amazing. DH made breakfast in bed, we had a great brunch at church and a yummy dinner, also prepared by DH. The one thing that was a little different for me than most mothers, well at least from what they have told me, I had no desire to give up "baby-duty" all day. I changed diapers, fed, dressed, and just loved on Little Miss all day long. I just wanted to hold and basque in her chubby baby-ness all day.

IF has made me a better mother. I'm not judging mothers who need days off. It is a hard job and we all need a break. DH did get up with her at 6:30 am for her first feeding and let me sleep until 7:15. It was glorious. But I really wanted to just spend every second with her. And I really feel if she had come 9 years ago like I had planned I wouldn't have the same appreciation. How can you know how sweet something can be without the bitter? I appreciate her and not a day goes by that I don't think about what it was like before her. Those were dark days for me. No, my battle with IF isn't over, it may never be, but I will always be her mommy. I am eternally grateful for that. Only tears of joy shed yesterday!


  1. What a glorious mother's day for you...your first of many more to come. Isn't it amazing to have so much love for your baby? We often reflect on what in the world did we do those first 9 years before our baby came along too. Like you said, they were dark days, but the joy that is here and what lies ahead is a true blessing. :)