M and BD went on Tuesday to sign away their rights!! They both opted to sign the final termination of rights so there is no grace period. That means little miss is ours!! Yes I know we still have to wait for the judge to sign off and blah blah blah, but in my mind it is pretty close to being done! I'm so excited!! I feel like a huge weight has been taken from my shoulders. I told DH two nights ago while we were celebrating with some froyo that I felt like she was finally ours. He was floored and said you haven't thought that the whole time?!?! I told him yes I always knew from the moment I knew she was coming she was meant to be ours BUT I knew that until all their paperwork was signed that she wasn't legally ours. My love for her is constant. I have wanted to spend every moment with her since the second M told us her plans. It was hard living in different cities over an hour away and not being able to be there all the time while she was still growing in M. I guess that IF has taught me never to count my chickens before they hatch. So even if my heart was "all in" from the moment I knew about her, my mind still had one tiny part that liked to remind me it could all fall apart. I don't know if every adoptive mom feels this way, this is my journey and this is how I feel. I never would've guessed it would take 5 months to sign TPR but that is how our adoption went. State of CA adoptions are funny. Good thing we are good people who have had this little darling with us for the last 5 months. HAAHA!
So without further ado, allow me to introduce Little Miss...
Pictures have been removed. Sorry.
We gave her my middle name and her first name came to me the Sunday before we even knew if she was a boy or a girl while sitting in church. I don't know that I will leave the pics up forever, after all this is an anonymous blog, but I couldn't not share her with all of you. She is our whole world and the women (and maybe some men) I have shared this road with needed to meet her. She is truly the greatest gift our Heavenly Father has ever given us. We are incredibly blessed.
