Monday, October 24, 2011

Not our month

So no miracle baby this month. It was a lot harder this time when AF came than it was last month. Not because I thought I had a better chance of it working this month, I think it was just one of those months. I think we all have those kinds of cycles. The ones where we literally feel like we can't stand to go one more day without having a baby or the possibility of one. I was so consumed with grief I cried quite a bit the last few days. I am just over not being able to do what so many women can. I am over my husband not being able to do what so many men can. I am done with all this IF crap! I just want off this ride!! Unfortunately, I am not the one who gets to choose when this roller coaster ends or even how it will end. So I am taking it one day at a time and counting my many blessings... even if the one blessing I desire most is being withheld.

6 comments:

  1. I know how hard it is to have it all consume your every waking minute, but know that your desires and prayers do not go unheard.

    Keep counting your blessings and leave it all in the Lord's hands.

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  2. I'm praying for you, I'm sorry you're in a funk...totally understandable!

    One day at a time... you will receive your blessing, just stay faithful to the Lord and the process :)

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  3. I'm so sorry. We often don't understand why God says no, or "not now." What we do know is that He doesn't say so flippantly or for no good reason. There is a higher purpose. And it is usually to draw us nearer to Him. He wants more of you.

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  4. Please know that you are not alone. Sending you a huge hug.

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  5. I'm sorry. You're definitely not alone. IF just plain sucks, especially when there's no end in sight. Hugs.

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  6. I am so sorry and wish it WERE your month. :( Thinking of you.

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