Out of left field

I don't even know where to begin. Let's start with the phone call. My mom called last week to tell me a relative of mine was pregnant. It wasn't happy news since the woman is not married or ready to have a baby. She is not a teen, but still young and trying to get her life started. Then the next sentence was the one that will change our lives forever, "And she wants to give the baby to you and DH." My heart skipped a beat. And then the seconds went by very slowly as my mind raced with questions. My mom went over all the details and I told her I was on-board but had to see what DH would say. To say I couldn't think that day is an understatement. BTW, she said she was 5 months pregnant!  

Since the news was so huge I waited until DH got home from work before I told him. I wanted to be able to discuss it and read his facial ques to be sure he was fine with all of this. I told him and shock was his first reaction and then a smile I will never forget. He said, "I knew this was going to happen." I was like um yeah right like you knew ______ was going to be pregnant. He said, "no but I knew our child was coming. I could just feel it." Tears, lots of tears. I think I have turned off that kind of hope after all we have been through. It was amazing to hear he hadn't and was able to listen to those promptings.

So here we are almost a week later. Birth Mom, know as M, had her first OB appt yesterday and everything looked amazing! Nice strong heartbeat and perfectly healthy in every aspect. And she found out we are having a .........




GIRL!!

She came up to where we live and brought us a cute gift and card to announce the sex! It was amazingly thoughtful and sweet.  We got to find out in a cute way just like I had always imagined. It has been amazing how miraculous this whole thing is. It was not at all the way I had imagined it happening, but the Lord's plans are greater than mine. I feel awestruck that we have been chosen to be this child's parents. We weren't even in the adoption mindset, well I wasn't, DH has been since IVF #1 nearly killed his wife. One of the most inspiring things about it all is that I had told a few people when they had asked us about adoption, and I wasn't saying this, I would tell them that I felt like a BM would just find us and tell us she knew she was carrying our child. I know, I know that is bizarre, but it is truly what I felt. We have a couple at our church that it happened to and I felt that if we were to adopt, that's how it would happen to us too. People said I was crazy, but I knew! I wonder if that is the only way the Lord could knock me over the head and say hello, this is how baby #1 will become part of your eter.nal family. 

This has all happened so fast and I don't know that I have really processed all of it just yet. I went and purchased a few cute girl outfits yesterday because I couldn't resist! I know that a lot of people would probably advise us to wait until things were a little more finalized before I start filling a room with girly things, but I'm all in people! I really feel like everything will be ok  and work out in the end. (Ok yes that little voice is still in the back of my head, but I am working on silencing her.) If I hold back and things don't work out it won't make it any easier in the end. It will just make me more unhappy now. I'm already in love! 

It looks like we will finally be parents mid November.