Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Ready or not!

I have my pre-cycle appointment next Tuesday the 12th. I am nervous! Yes, this is what I have been waiting for for the last 5+ years, but... sometimes I wonder if I am ready. I know, it sounds totally crazy right?? I have been hoping, praying and wishing for this. Well now the time has come. DH keeps saying, "Don't be nervous, it WILL work!" But maybe I am nervous about that too. I am scared to be pregnant. I am scared to be a mom. Yes it is all I want in the world, but... am I ready. I certainly am scared it wont work. For sure! But I'm trying really hard to not let my mind go there. So it will work. I should be starting bcp once my next cycle has started sometime around the 22nd. Oh my gosh this is really happening!!
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8 comments:

  1. Secret DJanuary 5, 2010 at 10:28 AM

    It is very scary. I'm just behind you, we have our initial consultation on 1 Feb and although I am eager for it to be the 1 Feb already I am also scared beyond belief. It is so weird to feel excited, scared, optimistic and pessimistic all at the same time.

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  2. JoJanuary 5, 2010 at 10:29 AM

    I SO get this. I had many of the same feelings before our first IVF cycle. Sometimes I wondered if I was more afraid it wouldn't work -- or that it would.

    Sending lots of hugs your way and hoping that peace comes with the start of the FUN that is IVF!

    Hugs,
    Jo

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  3. R.J.January 5, 2010 at 10:36 AM

    Yay, so happy you're getting all scheduled for your cycle! You'll do great!

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  4. TraceyJanuary 5, 2010 at 11:13 AM

    It's about time someone said that!! It's super scary to think about what will happen regardless of the outcome. Yes, we've been working for years toward becoming pregnant, but that doesn't mean that the thought of being a parent isn't just as scary as the thought of being childless! It's different types of scary, but it makes us all nervous anyway! Thank you for putting it out there that just because we're IF doesn't mean we are 100% secure in our ability to be future parents.
    Good luck!!!

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  5. PriscillaJanuary 5, 2010 at 11:31 AM

    Very exciting that you're getting started!! Try to enjoy it!! :)

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  6. IF Optimist, then...January 5, 2010 at 12:37 PM

    Congratulations on moving forward. You are absolutely normal. It IS scary to think of all those things, but so is the best part of a roller coaster, just when you're at the top and the weightlessness hits you and then you plunge and scream and laugh as hard as you can.

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  7. HillaryJanuary 7, 2010 at 5:17 PM

    Ohh, I am so excited for you to move forward! I can totally imagine that scared-not-ready feeling....even though I'm sure you are so excited to move forward, too.

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  8. MeJanuary 9, 2010 at 3:38 PM

    Yay! We could be starting around the same time. I am starting my cycle day 21 which is Jan. 25. I'm in shock too...this seems so big. I'm really excited. :-)

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