Revision on the new plan

I slept on it, and I just can't give up the idea of having DH's baby. We are going to try IVF once and then move on to DIUI. This way we have given our own genetics a try. When I told DH my thoughts this morning he said he felt the same way. So sorry folks, put the breaks on. We will not be cycling in December. Hopefully we will have the money saved by Jan-Feb, maybe March. We did some strict budgeting and we should be able to have the rest of what we need by then, plus the cushion DH requires to move forward. I guess my posting last night was a bit premature.

A new plan

I had a MAJOR break down Friday night. I mean real bad! I have reached my breaking point with life. Between IVF, lack of funds, my mom being sick, and pregnant women everywhere, I just could not seem to cope one more second. Poor DH, he is such a wonderful man and sat with me and let me tell him how much I hate the world. I just feel like I can't take all this pressure. So tonight we sat down and talked about our fertility plan. Not something we have done in a while. We came up with a totally new plan..... Donor IUI. We both feel that, given our fertility issues, it is a good step to try before pulling out the big guns for IVF. He doesn't really care about having genetic connections to our children and likes the fact that it is thousands cheaper than IVF. The great news is we will be starting ASAP. I am scared and still weighing through all the emotions. We have thought a lot about adoption, and have always felt like that was something we would do, so this at least gives us the opportunity to have some genetic connection to a child.

Thoughts??

**Side note - we have actually been talking about DIUI for months now and finally went through everything and decided it was the next step we wanted to take. So know that this decision was not made in one conversation.

All the love

Thank you bloggy friends for the outpouring of love! These past two days have been a nightmare. My poor mom has been sick for so long. I think she is relived to finally have a diagnosis. From what I have researched Lymph.oma is a very treatable cancer. I have faith that she will be ok, and we will be able to get through this. Her news is incredibly hard because my father was killed in a car accident when I was 7, so, being the oldest child, I was more like my mom's right-hand-man growing up. She is my best friend! I simply don't know how I would live without her. And how the heck could I be a mom without her!! Ok, the tears are coming, I need to stop.

I just wanted to say thank you so much! I haven't been able to tell any IRL friends because my mom doesn't want people to know until the doctors know more about what stage it is at and what form of Lymph.oma she has. So being able to vent here has been such a relief. I wish I could hug each one of you. Thank you for all the prayers. I will update as I know more.

One call...

My mom was diagnosed with Lymp.homa yesterday... there are no words.

What's inside

This is what Fertility Blend for men has in it.

Ingredients for men's :
Vitamin C (as ascorbic acid) 120 mg
Vitamin E (as d-alpha tocopherol) 150 IU
Vitamin B6 (as pyridoxine hydrochloride) 2 mcg
Vitamon B12 (as cyanocobalmin) 6 mcg
Folate (as folic acid) 400 mcg
Zinc (as gluconate) 15 gm
Selenium (as sodium selenate) 70 mcg
Proprietary Blend: L-Carnitine fumarate, green tea (camelia sinensis) - standardized leaf extract, and Dong quai - standardized root extract (900 mg)

Helping out the swimmers

Our RE recommended DH start taking Fertility Belnd before our first try at IVF. He took it for 3 months earlier this year when we hoped to do our cycle in July. He didn't do anohter SA since we decided to hold off for a bit. We know it wont make his swimmers majically go from >1 million to 20 million. We hope that maybe it will improves his motility. He just started back on it a few days ago and has another three month supply. (Keeping our fingers crossed we will have the money saved in 3 months)

Has your hubby ever tried some kind of herbal blend? Did it work?

Benched

I am getting really restless sitting on the bench waiting for my turn to go in. I know that DH wants to have every penny accounted for before we start our first round of IVF, but all this waiting is killing me! I have a wonderful friend I have known for years. She and her husband have triplets conceived through IVF. She was the first person I reached out to when we learned of DH's diagnosis. Turns out they have the same issue. She went in for her FET last week and is pregnant, this time with one baby. I am super excited fer her. They are amazing parents and such a cute little family. My sadness came because we were planning to do our cycle before her, then maybe at the same time, now after. I know that it will happen sooner rather than later, but I wish sooner was today! Is 5 years not long enough to wait?!? All I want for Christmas is IVF!

Well thank you!!

Lin at Our Someday Family... gave me an award! Thank you so much Lin! So now it is my turn to pass it on.

Here are the rules:

Rules

1. You Can Only Use One Word!

2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers

3. Alert them that you have given them this award!

4. Have Fun!

The Fun Part

1. Where is your cell phone? Purse

2. Your hair? Brown

3. Your mother? Amazing

4. Your father? Loving

5. Your favorite food? Chocolate

6. Your dream last night? Strange

7. Your favorite drink? Water

8. Your dream/goal? Motherhood

9. What room are you in? Office

10. Your hobby? Baking

11. Your fear? Rape

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Home

13. Where were you last night? Running

14. Something that you aren’t? Tall

15. Muffins? Blueberry

16. Wish list item? IVF

17. Where did you grow up? Cali

18. Last thing you did? Text

19. What are you wearing? Clothes

20. Your TV? There

21. Your pets? Remi

22. Friends? Missing

23. Your life? Waiting

24. Your mood? Content

25. Missing someone? Mom

26. Vehicle? Camry

27. Something you’re not wearing? Socks

28. Your favorite store? Target

29. Your favorite color? Red

30. When was the last time you laughed? Now

31. Last time you cried? Sunday

32. Your best friend? Hubby

33. One place that I go to over and over? Work

34. One person who emails me regularly? AM.R

35. Favorite place to eat? Sushi

Recipients

1. IF Optimist

2. Call Me Mama

3. Crazy Lady

4. Hope.Faith.Patience

5. Is It My Turn Yet?

6. Baby Making Journey

Don't forget to pass it on!!

Creations

This is what I did for the shower. The pictures do not do this beautiful stand justice.

These are the cute Martha Stuart favor boxes I bought and added the sticker to each. They house my Oreo Truffles. YUM!!